Sunday, November 01, 2009
Seriously, I haven't said he is anything about his actions yet
and he turned around and told me I am inappropriate?
Hello boy, there are many things I didn't say out loud is because I don't want to ruin this relationship.
So whatever you didnt hear is not because you are doing it right.
REMEMBER.
I always coached and believed that game reveals the person you are.
Whatever you displayed yesdterday, disappointing.
SERIOUSLY!
It's the first time someone told me I am being inappropriate and "I give up on you" on the SAME DAY.
Why am I even putting up with all these.
DAMN PISSED.
Mumbo meeting, hope it will all go well.
The Lady Vampire
12:10 PM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Project Camp ENDED!
The camp was more than AMAZING.
I can easily write an essay out of it.
PLUS, I am more excited when it comes to Ultimate Projects' projects now.
:D
4 days before the camp commences, I was desperately trying to find 10 volunteers for the 3 days 2 nights camp.
I was a little worried that I can't hit the number for the camp to go on.
However, little of what I would expect, more than 20 friends (and friend's friend, friend's friend's friend) express interest to be a part of this.
I am very touched that many of my friends helped me spread the message along, to all their friends.
I felt really stupid when I remembered I almost burst into tears as I was too worried about getting the volunteers.
Day 1 of the camp.
I felt really awkward briefing the guys (guy as in boy guy).
I didn't know them, never worked with them before.
However, things went on really well when jokes started surfacing.
I was inadequate in many areas and everyone helped me to fill the holes.
There were times when I forgot to allocate the logistics to be cleared, and my team of volunteers actually cleared them on the way.
There were times I forgot to clear the garbage bags and they had them clear, once again.
The camp would not have been so smooth without them.
In fact even without my presence, the camp would still be as awesome with these dedicated bunch of people.
And I enjoyed the supper.
Day 2 of the camp.
This was when I got to interact with the teachers more.
They are really nice people who are constantly doing their best to reach out to students to a larger extent.
I felt really comfortable working alongside with the teachers, together with the volunteers.
Maybe it's because the teachers are young or it could be because I am getting older.
Once again, my team was way beyond understanding.
Unlike some of the camps I attended, no time was wasted pushing blame but more on actually working on a solution to solve the problem on hand.
So this is how it feels to work with a group of leaders.
We all may have different roles (logistics, taking group, game in charge, videoing, etc) and may not see each other face to face throughout the camp.
However, nothing would have been possible without any of the roles.
The smiles on the campers' faces told me that I was doing fine.
Day 3 of camp.
It was fun to watch everyone getting wet and dirty.
My team was really tired.
Despite that, it seemed that the thought of giving a little less than 150% effort never crossed their minds.
I practically had to force them to take a rest.
I'm glad that they are doing so (kind of since they are writing notes of encouragement and thanks to their kids).
It felt as though I am learning in a perfect environment with the perfect team around me.
So lucky of me.
I brought home many learning lessons, and also realised many areas for improvement.
I should really stop feeling awkward using a mike!
At the end of the day, my verdict is:
Volunteer initiatives/ideas ALWAYS beat commercial ones.
What I learnt in Management lectures are right.
Biggest thanks to the wonderful people who made this camp turn out the way it did.
Richard, Glenn, Chun Kiat, Tyson, Renus, Edwin, Spencer (Lin), Keru, Justin, Zhen Yong.
Jun-Wu, Fu Yong, Bronson, Kelvin, Leonard, Aloysius, Spencer (Nai).
You Wei, Shun Ping, Shu Jia, Phyllis.
Teachers of international college,
and of course the young leaders of the college
To my team:
Your dedication is something that mere words can't express.
I can't be more grateful that you are able to assist me make this camp a great one.
I also admire all of you for the effort you placed for people you never met.
One last thing you boys would LOVE to hear,
the teachers told me,
"Raine, how did you manage to find all so handsome volunteers to help you?"
And something even better,
"It's surprising how such dedicated volunteers exist"
Hopefully while you all were offering our service to someone who needs them, you yourself have also learnt valuable lessons and had tons of fun.
I promised you before the camp that you'll sure have fun and learn something new.
I hope I managed to deliver that promise.
[Ultimate Projects] (can find us on facebook!)
Finally signing off with a wide grin on my face.
The Lady Vampire
9:51 PM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Maybe, maybe God is real
Maybe God is real but you guys got it all wrong.
God is not a He or a She.
If God is real and it wants the best for everyone,
he won't allow people to be biased for one gender or another.
God don't want you to defend it.
If you think God wants you to go into a war or argument to defend it's name, then you are so wrong.
Because God is loving, forgiving and powerful isn't it?
So what's with the killing and harming others "in the name of God"
If God has anything to say, it won't need to go through one man and one man only.
All the "sacred writings" are written by man aren't they?
Anyone can pick up a motivational book and title it "Words of God".
So why are people following them blindly.
If you think God planned your life, I will tell you, "Haha".
Then don't punish the wrong doers because if God planned yours, I'm sure it planned the wrong doer's too.
So at the end of this kind of blog post, I am supposed to write something really clever like "God loves us"?
God may be real.
If it is, he'll want you to love yourself instead of it loving you.
Maybe, I am not a non believer of higher powers/ God.
I just don't trust others' definition of God.
Too many flaws people.
Disclaimer: This is a junk post so don't take it seriously and be too upset over it. :)
The Lady Vampire
2:21 PM
Monday, October 19, 2009
100% satisfied with myself on 18 Oct
I was involved in an active aging event yesterday.
It was a wonderful experience!
We had to reach there at around 5am in the morning.
Packed the goodie bags, moved heavy boxes.
Everyone of us had to take a group of around 40 to 50 people.
Mine is a really funny one.
They didn't know they are there for a walk-a-jog event!
Right after they are done with the walk, they all went home.
For a second I wanted to be a bum and just sit around till everything ends like most of the other people were doing.
Then, I realised it would be boring.
(Standing around bitching? No thanks!)
Then I saw a mess over at the redemption counter.
The guys over there obviously had no idea how to deal with the aunties and uncles fighting for freebies.
I can't believe I stood forward and shouted, "QUEUE HERE! NO QUEUE NO REDEMPTION!"
When I think back, it's quite funny.
It's like dealing with children!
That kind of stuff, of course girls would be better at it. HAHA!
Had a lot of fun and laughter over at the counter.
Well, I don't know those guys, had no obligations to help them but I did!
And I'm sooooo full of myself now.
I'm so proud to tell everyone that I've done my very best!
Hopefully you friends reading this would test this out next time.
Do something more than what is expected.
The person who would be most grateful and happiest would be YOURSELF!
Nothing to test out with?
I have a suggestion!
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=158474908525I'm soooo desperately looking for volunteers now.
I'll be very very happy if this turns out to be a huge success!
The Lady Vampire
3:25 PM
Friday, October 16, 2009
Letting go the past
I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.
I know I shouldn't be thinking, shouldn't feel sorry, shouldn't feel sad.
But I am.
Because I am touched by this thing called love.
Scars don't heal, they just get forgotten.
But have I forgotten?
Is it normal to be thinking of happy times I had before?
Even though I know that, that relationship before can never come back again?
I am starting to forget the reason why my previous relationship failed.
But I can't forget the happy moments in my previous.
I am the lousiest girlfriend on Earth, aint I?
Jun Wu, Jun Wu..
Sometimes I hope you can come into this blog of mine, read what I have in mind, and advice me how should we proceed on from here.
Raine, please stop reading his blog and get your feelings all messed up again.
The Lady Vampire
4:57 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009
Interesting!
Was over at Phuture/Zouk with JunWu and his army friends on Saturday.
A little out of place but glad that all are friendly people.
Was pretty amazed to see so many NYJ's people over there too!
JunWu almost broke into a fight with another guy.
So much for his first time!
Never did enjoy dancing, never will.
That's a little disappointing 'cos a little part of me likes it.
Well, you just dance whichever way you like and nobody really cares how well you dance (or rather they can't see who's that dancing)
It is fun to silently laugh at some nerds trying to dance.
I'm mean but it's really funny!
I must say, Saturday was really great.
Dined at Tao's restaurant.
Thumbs up!
When photos are ready (next weekend), shall upload!
Yummy food, great service.
Reservation is very important!
Apparently we made reservation and still had to wait.
Imagine that!
Shopped with that boy.
He bought quite a few, no stuff for me.
Had already spent too much the past few days.
Time to hold back as income is gonna hold till my exams and camp ends.
A really huge sacrifice for the camp!
Well, first time taking on a committee role in mumbo camp, just hope it'll turn out much better than the Christmas party I organized last year.
Lastly, a volunteer camp is coming up for an international school.
Students with poor (english) language skills, little confidence.
Mostly are korean kids.
Secondary school students.
It's over the weekend (23-25 oct), non overnight.
Transportation shall be reimbursed.
More details will be available on Ultimate Projects (facebook) when ready.
It's nice to blog again.
Haha.
Apparently I have been pretty sick for the last 3 weeks (on and off).
According to the doctor, I'm too stressed up, lack of sleep.
Stress? Subconsciously maybe?
Lack of sleep? Pretty true and I have not yet figured out what is the cause!
I feel like I'm summarizing my life.
One day, I am going to print out all my blog entries and make it into a book!
:)
The Lady Vampire
1:11 AM
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Whitie passed away..
When my eyes open every morning, I will be greeted by Whitie who would be doing her somersaults.
She loves flipping her body backwards and won't stop even if she hits her head.
Whitie also loves drinking lots of water, sleeping in awfully cute positions and running around the cage in a systematic manner.
For the 5 months, she never failed to make me laugh.
Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night to fill up her bottle.
If I knew she would be gone today, I would have stayed with her.
I would have given her favourite vegetables together with the new change of water.
At least, she went away peacefully with a full water bottle and her favourite hideout box.
Sleeping in her favourite corner
Sleeping and drinking, at the same time.
See? To find her, look for her water bottle.
It's a pity to see her gone.
:(
The Lady Vampire
8:25 PM
